Election Day. My favorite day.

What is your favorite day of the year that is not your birthday or some major holiday?

Mine is Election Day. Why?

It is the one day of the year where we get to make our voices heard across our state/commonwealth and across the nation. It is the one day where we get to release our feelings finally and then hope and pray for the best.

As the results get ready to come in a few hours, I am interested to see how this turns out and see where we go as a nation from here.

To those that unfriended friends and family because of this election, I hope you guys learned that it is okay to have different opinions than your own. Not only that, but you should never discuss politics with friends and family. For me, I make mine brief if I were to bring it up.

Buckle up America. It’s going to be a fun ride.

This post is unbiased towards any candidate and is not endorsing anyone. Please make your own decision.

Just my life…

If there is anything that describes me, it would be this.

Every day I go to work, live my life, and do everything I can to make others happy. Most of the time, I forget about my own needs and when the time comes that I need some help, I don’t get a lot of it, or any at all. Of course, when you are like me and have anxiety and depression, this doesn’t usually go too well.

Like I mentioned in my last post, I do feel lonely at times and it makes me sad that there are not a lot of people I can turn to because most don’t know how to deal with it or say the wrong thing to irritate me.

I know the last few days I’ve felt a bit down and upset, but I still put on a happy face for everyone. I just have to learn to be more honest with myself…and to others.

That’s all for now. I hope everyone is having a great day.

Sometimes I just need someone..

Ever have the moments where you text or Facebook message someone and you never get a response back? Or if you do, it is much later and you know you can’t respond back because it is already too late in the day? Yeah, that’s how I’m feeling right now. I’m a bit upset and I wanted to talk to some people about it and I sent out 5-10 text messages and I maybe got 2 or 3 back, if that.

Of course, this makes me anxious that I am waiting for a reply, depressed that I haven’t gotten a response, and angry because usually these people are great at responding, even when they have a quick moment.

I know the world doesn’t revolve around me so don’t say that, but I do everything I can to respond to a message when someone needs to talk to me about something. Even while at work, if I have a moment, I’ll respond. May not be the best one, but it is one.

There are times actually where I go a whole day and my phone will not go off once, or if it does, it is for a notification, not a text message or phone call.

Sometimes, I just need someone. Especially when I’m feeling down, lonely, etc.

The Semicolon Movement

As many of you are aware, I have both anxiety and depression. I have suffered through these for a long time, and it was its worst when I was college. College was fun, yes, but when my grades suffered and I didn’t have much or many people to turn to, that is what made it harder. Just last weekend, I had a panic attack in my sleep. I was sleeping pretty well and then I woke up, got nervous about who knows what, and couldn’t breathe.

With that all being said, I’m not the person who you thought I was/am. I have been thought to be suicidal at times and while that may be true to some, I have been stronger than before and haven’t thought in a while.

Now, comes the part with The Semicolon Movement. Those with a semicolon as a tattoo get them to show that they could have ended their life, but decided to keep going. I have thought about getting one for myself, but I am unsure at the moment. If I were to get one, it would be green since green is my favorite color.

To those (like myself) that suffer through anxiety, depression, bipolar, or any other metal illness, you are not alone. We are all in this together and I love you all (as a friend). If you need anything, leave a comment or Facebook/Instagram me and we can talk.

Colin Kapernick: Friend or foe?

Before I get started, I would like to let you know that this post will view both sides of the coin and not just one.

You hear the Star Spangled Banner, what do you do? For most people, they will remove their hat, place their hand over their heart (or salute), and either sing or hum it to themselves.

On Friday night, San Francisco 49ers Quarterback Colin Kapernick refused to stand up for the playing of the national anthem. After he did this, it caused a huge uproar on social media and throughout the sports world. However, the National Football League released a statement in saying that it is not required for its players to stand during it.

Now what do I think of this?

The American and Patriot in me says what he did was absolutely wrong and he should be ashamed for his actions. I don’t care who you are and what you believe in, you should stand for the National Anthem because it is paying respect for those that died for the flag.

The other side of me says he has every right not to stand. It is not required to stand (like the league says) at every event and he is expressing his Free Speech/1st Amendment right. Shoot, I know people who don’t even stand for it and I normally don’t care.

Before you give him a hard time, think about it. Think about everything you don’t like. Just like him, you have an opinion too. It may not be the most popular one, but it is one.

Remember, this blog is unbiased and all opinions are solely of me and no one else.

Take pride, why don’t you?

As the Olympics get ready to come to an end down in Rio, I can’t help but think about all the athletes that are/were down there for the summer games.

Most, if not, all of these athletes were training for their moment for many years and while a lot of them may not come away with a medal, they  know that they still competed at the highest level and gave everything they could.

It seems like that a lot of times though, especially here in the United States, we can’t take pride in our athletes. Either because they shouldn’t be going to the games or we give so much criticism towards them that we forget that they are human too. Most likely as well, they will have accomplished something greater than what you have and are proud to be an American.

Also, a lot of this has to deal with Social Media. As soon as a picture of someone is posted and it is about something great, we (as a nation) spin it and want to turn it negative and/or blast that person. What happened to being nice and most importantly, didn’t you learn that if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all? There are way too many negative people/posts that want to make a good story bad. It really angers me. Like, you have no idea.

If you are one of these people that can’t stand these people, then by all means, try and step into their shoes. You’ll see it is not that easy. I used to be a big runner, soccer, and hockey player myself, but you will never see me giving them or any Olympic athlete a hard time.

So the next time the Olympics, World Cup, or some other event is going on, think twice before giving your fellow countryman (or countrywoman) a hard time.

Patience. Something we all need to have.

The other night while I was at work and listening to the radio feed of my coworkers calling the desk to get some information, it came to my attention that a lot of them don’t really have patience. They would call for the person there three, sometimes more before she would answer and truthfully, it got a little annoying hearing them call her out after the second time. Especially when they do it really quick after the first time doesn’t go through.

Now, I’m not that patient myself, but I’ve learned to wait a minute or two before I call for the same person again or someone different in the same function.

I feel like society as a whole is losing its patience. We want everything and we want it now. Whether it be food, an order online, the internet, etc. we want it as quick as we can get it. If we were to slow down, enjoy life, and let everything come to us in time, we wouldn’t have to be in such a rushy mood now do we?

So, with that being said, let’s relax a little and enjoy what life has to offer.


I’m sorry, what?

Note: The following blog post has been rated “T” for truthful.

I have never been more hurt, shocked, and in utter disbelief after reading a news article. If you have not heard, a New York Times journalist said that “God Bless America” should be put to the side and never played again at a MLB game. Here is a direct link to the NY Daily News article if you haven’t already read it. This is from the same guy who had an issue with firing a weapon.

I’m sorry, what?

You claim that 61% of fans don’t want it being played at a game, but in reality though, who did you ask? Mets and Yankees fans? Sir, I hate to break it to you, but last time I checked, I didn’t really find anyone who had a problem with that song. Especially in markets such as Baltimore, Washington, San Diego, Boston, and yes, even New York.

I understand that America is struggling as a whole, but a song like that is what keeps the country going. It warms our hearts, makes us feel good, and gives us something to cheer about. It brings the country come together as one as well; same with the Star Spangled Banner.

Where else can you go in this world and have as many freedoms and choices as we do? as time I checked, not too many, if at all.

While you are entitled to your opinion, I respectfully disagree Mr. Kuntzman. That song should make you feel proud to be an American. If you can’t stand beside her like the song says, then I highly advise you to find somewhere else to go.

God Bless America. She may have her issues, but there is no place I rather be. Have a great Independence Day Weekend everyone.

Learn from me.

I don’t mind any new job but…

Have you ever had a job where you are either ashamed to tell people what you do or it takes so much out of you and you just want to quit, but know you can’t?

That happened to me two years ago.

Two years ago, I worked for a company called DC Events in Northern Virginia. When I applied for such “job” I was told that I would be promoting Breast Cancer Awareness around the area and it was a management position too. Needless to say, that was not the case.

During the summer of 2014, I was selling FW1 Car Wax to complete strangers (and the occasional friend or family) at gas stations all across Northern Virginia, parts of Maryland, and parts of the Shenandoah Valley. I did this for four months, twelve hours a day, six days a week, on 30% commission (only!) and I missed almost the entire FIFA World Cup because of it.

That’s right. I worked twelve hours a day, six days a week. Basically here is how a day went for me: Get up at 6:30, out the door at 7, sit in traffic for a half hour or more, get to the office, get items ready, have an “atmosphere” meeting, then the regular “meeting”, drive (more times than not, my car) to the “event”,  stay there for six to eight hours, come back to the office, check in and get lectured most likely, drive home, get home around nine, and do it all again the next day.

The pay was absolutely terrible. I made only 30% commission and there were some days, I didn’t sell a thing or if I did, it wasn’t much. Only select few days did I make $200+ more and when I did, I would fall flat on my face the very next day.

The last thing I remember is, when I started this position, I had quite a bit of money saved up, but by the time I “quit”, all that money was pretty much gone. Whether it is from paying my student loans, gassing up the car two-three times a week, covering my shortages in my sales, or even helping someone when they need it. If I’m not mistaken, my account was actually in the negatives when I left.

I never had time to research “Smart Circle” and when I did, it was already too late. I found out they are part of a bigger company and they are out to scam people left and right with these “management positions” and only a select few ever make it to the top, if at all.

My advice to any of you: research the company you are working for when it comes to sales and don’t make the same mistake I did.

What happened to respect?

I wrote this on my Facebook four years ago today:


In those four years, I can honestly say (and I hope you’ve noticed it too) that bullying has not only continued, but has gotten worse nationwide. If anything, it has also been on an increase because of this upcoming election.

Not only that, but Social Media has turned a lot of us against one another. We are also seeing a bunch of “Keyboard Warriors” out there that think they know everything. When actually, we don’t. If we back off and away from the platform for a bit, we will see that things are a bit different in the real world.

Now, I wasn’t bullied much through school, but when I was, I didn’t think much of it. Yeah there was the occasional person that would give me a hard time, but even then, we would make up and move on.

I don’t understand why we need to bully each other. We are all human and we all have differences. That is what makes each and every one of unique. So what if someone has a different religion, different political beliefs, different favorite sports teams, and mostly, different race? We need to accept that and move on. If we were all the same, the world would be a very boring place.

I grew up respecting everyone no matter what…and so should you. Teach that to your kids. Teach that to your coworkers. Teach that to your family. Mostly, pass it on.